I am disappointed in God because he does not care a peanut (2009)

Tuesday 10 February, 2009, 12H00. I am disappointed in God because he does not care a peanut. God is not a good God as I have been thinking since I was born. God is not almighty, humans have the full power, it is them who make the good weather and the bad weather. God is only a faint copy of reality, believing in God, believing in his might does not lead anywhere.

God is a coward, blind and deaf and dumb. Satan has more power than God. I am disappointed, I  had faith in God, today I know that God is not as almighty as I thought. God is nothing at all, he can go to hell. It is because of him that hell is here on earth. God is an other bastard and believing in him is a waste of time. We do not need him, but he needs us to exist. God is pityful, he does not react to the unfairness of men. He lets it happen, he lets all to be said, he disgusts me at the highest point, today I deny you, at least prove us to be the one we think you are or fuck off, I do not fear you, you are a little shit.

Monday 20 April, 10H15. My friends have gone on holiday to Turkey for 10 days, as always I am worried for their safety. Over there, there are lots of fanatics, criminals that would not hesitate to take your life to become martyrs in the name of their God. They don’t even have the courage to kill without naming God ! It is true, God gives us and takes life but it is not a killer. He is what us human could never be. He is  hight and depth,  God is full and void. God is love and forgiveness. God  is life and death. God is hot and cold. God is strength and weakness. We humans, we are these things, these elements, we are at his scale, only little laboratory rats, we do to the rats what Jah does since the human race existed. Somewhere else there are other human civilisations more or less advanced than us, I do not believe that we are the only humans. Never mind, we are not yet knowledgable enough to find each other.

Because life on Earth is very hard, the inhabitants of this planet are crual, not enough solidarity between them, not enough brotherhood between us. Man is God’s creation, Man is the disciple of the master, the master teaches and the disciple would like to surpass his master, then Man fabricates destructive weapons and follows his animal instinct. The human race is the only sub-species that attacks whatever it encounters. Only by procreating, we give life but we bring up our seeblings as ourselves, it is a good thing that free thinking still exists otherwise Hell would be queen in the life of each of us.

The richest amongst us are sheltered from nothing, they will just take hell but with more glitter. To be rich does not give you any more right but just to live. You think that your millions will allow you to be the only boss, come on, wake up Mister the rich, because your land is also my land, the air you breath is also my air, your thoughts are also my thoughts. The dosh that you dearly cherish gives you a lot of worries in your life. This is not the case for the poor people, they don’t worry about what they don’t have, money is not the only concern in their life. To live is to die, to die is to live. It’s the same being rich or poor ! Jah is the master of this big upheaval. It is only in the world of Babylon that money is law. In the world where there is no commercial dealings, where money is not the first incentive, you must cultivate and bend down to eat, you do not need a villa to feel at home, you do not need a car to move around, your legs are a free mean to move around in your big world.

Because Jah is great, it gave us everything on a plate, we just have to bend our pine and start working to live without this damned money that chains us all, which does make nobody happy. Life essential is not your money. Life essential is not your personal comfort. For me, my life essential is to have a good health, to love and cultivate the land of Jah. Of course ! you who live in Babylon, you are not lucky, you are not free because you are watched from all sides, eyes and ears are on you permanently.

Man, Woman, you do not live. You are only playing the game of those who have the power of money, but money does not make happiness, it only contributes to make you even more of a slave to the boss. Come on, wake up or will you go through your long life miserably or will you wake up and at last cultivate to grow up near Jah Rastafari !